Life After O's 8

The facade that people seem to try so hard to decorate is a nasty pain I feel in my neck. I won't play their games. For now I need to focus.

Break

Hi aye tus

Hiatus.  I seem to always return when I'm troubled, it's almost as if I'm taking you guys for granted. Sigh.

Need the hiatus to catch my breath.

What even is a hiatus.

sounds pretty cool

Im tired and lost, confused by the voices in my head. So much to think of, it's almost difficult to focus.

MG Hyaku Shiki 2.0 announced!!!☺☺☺☺

Hey hey it's been a while! Awesome news, the MG Hyaku Shiki 2.0 was just announced :D

Life After O's 7

Hi there! It's been a while hasn't it?
No sure, its fine, i am patient and i do so enjoy reading what you write.
Of course you do! YOU write it.

Conversing is so much less a chore when there isn't conversation at all.. I hate it when i plan out an argument perfectly in my head, but when it comes out~ well.. It's just plain bad English.

Sure, my English isn't exactly the best.. But my fear of people,  of speaking to them-- yes! That's bad. That's really bad.

On a side note,  I've had plenty of time to reflect over the past few weeks. It all isn't that bad, a tad sad is all.

The predicament. (Life After O's 6)

I tend to ramble on about my choices, if you've noticed in my past posts. It seems like I've made a fair, if not extreme, share of bad decisions that all led up to my life today. I want to belive the classic pokemon quote from the trainers Nugget Bridge above Cerulean city ~ "I did my best, I have no regrets!"

Sadly, I've built up a life of many, many regrets. 

For me, it has always been down to the final choice. Each wrong move I make, out of laziness or shyness, seems to form an unending chain of regret.  I don't know what consequences await me behind my choices, but at each moment I would feel a justifyable urge to choose the WORST possible decision. Maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's the same for everyone.

Either way, I'd wish there was a helping hand, one that would tell me which decision would, in the long run, turn out to have positive consequences. But even if there would be, I wonder if I would listen.

There are two conflicting voices in my head, arguing over which choice is best. Each has a valid argument, but neither has the foresight of the future. 

Yesterday, I realised that my decisions last year have denied me of a significant milestone. I cringed at the sight of others who, at that moment,  i felt, were walking over me, as they always do. But this time, more condescendingly, mocking me.

Today I stare at my endless mess of homework, wondering if I made the right choice.

Life After O's 5

It's been a few weeks since my last "update", but, hey! I'm back.

It has been another tiring week at school. I feel distanced from society as usual~ but nothing out of the ordinary, i guess. What's been irking me however, has been my inability to persevere.

I find time strangely demotivating. I truely can't get enough of it. I strap a watch on myself to remind myself that every minute that passes by cannot return. But the clock ticks on. My tutor once told me 'God is very fair. Everyone has 24 hours.' That is true. But you are the god of managing this 24 hours.

I need all the motivation I can get, but for now it seems to be a dying light.

Back to business

(Photo credit fwoosh.com, no plagiarism intended, but your pictures are amazing)

Bandai has stepped up their game recently, extending their line to the Star Wars Franchise. This clone trooper caught my attention the most. IT'S BEAUTIFUL

I will be getting one for sure!

Until next time!☺ 

But wait theres more !

Credits to sat from modellers jp~ Awesome red mega shiki. Probably the best looking red mobile suit in my opinion!

New year!

Hi, its been a while.

This is the second new year anniversary of my blog. Sadly, i haven't done much for gunpla, i wanted to hold it off for a while.

Let's talk (to myself) about resolutions.
Yeah its been a year of ups and downs..
I remember my resolutions for last year:
Be a different person, learn to care.
HEY it worked out for like half the year but it slowly, but surely wore off. I'm who I used to be, irresponsible and uhhh whatever.

Well I guess i didn't specify HOW LONG this resolution would last.. So..

This year I have a new one though,
This time it's for as long as I live (Hopefully)
I will exercise self control and learn to care.

Now back to gunpla talk yeh?

Long story short,  I'll be back (i promise [myself])