Life After O's 7

Hi there! It's been a while hasn't it?
No sure, its fine, i am patient and i do so enjoy reading what you write.
Of course you do! YOU write it.

Conversing is so much less a chore when there isn't conversation at all.. I hate it when i plan out an argument perfectly in my head, but when it comes out~ well.. It's just plain bad English.

Sure, my English isn't exactly the best.. But my fear of people,  of speaking to them-- yes! That's bad. That's really bad.

On a side note,  I've had plenty of time to reflect over the past few weeks. It all isn't that bad, a tad sad is all.

The predicament. (Life After O's 6)

I tend to ramble on about my choices, if you've noticed in my past posts. It seems like I've made a fair, if not extreme, share of bad decisions that all led up to my life today. I want to belive the classic pokemon quote from the trainers Nugget Bridge above Cerulean city ~ "I did my best, I have no regrets!"

Sadly, I've built up a life of many, many regrets. 

For me, it has always been down to the final choice. Each wrong move I make, out of laziness or shyness, seems to form an unending chain of regret.  I don't know what consequences await me behind my choices, but at each moment I would feel a justifyable urge to choose the WORST possible decision. Maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's the same for everyone.

Either way, I'd wish there was a helping hand, one that would tell me which decision would, in the long run, turn out to have positive consequences. But even if there would be, I wonder if I would listen.

There are two conflicting voices in my head, arguing over which choice is best. Each has a valid argument, but neither has the foresight of the future. 

Yesterday, I realised that my decisions last year have denied me of a significant milestone. I cringed at the sight of others who, at that moment,  i felt, were walking over me, as they always do. But this time, more condescendingly, mocking me.

Today I stare at my endless mess of homework, wondering if I made the right choice.

Life After O's 5

It's been a few weeks since my last "update", but, hey! I'm back.

It has been another tiring week at school. I feel distanced from society as usual~ but nothing out of the ordinary, i guess. What's been irking me however, has been my inability to persevere.

I find time strangely demotivating. I truely can't get enough of it. I strap a watch on myself to remind myself that every minute that passes by cannot return. But the clock ticks on. My tutor once told me 'God is very fair. Everyone has 24 hours.' That is true. But you are the god of managing this 24 hours.

I need all the motivation I can get, but for now it seems to be a dying light.

Back to business

(Photo credit fwoosh.com, no plagiarism intended, but your pictures are amazing)

Bandai has stepped up their game recently, extending their line to the Star Wars Franchise. This clone trooper caught my attention the most. IT'S BEAUTIFUL

I will be getting one for sure!

Until next time!☺ 

But wait theres more !

Credits to sat from modellers jp~ Awesome red mega shiki. Probably the best looking red mobile suit in my opinion!

New year!

Hi, its been a while.

This is the second new year anniversary of my blog. Sadly, i haven't done much for gunpla, i wanted to hold it off for a while.

Let's talk (to myself) about resolutions.
Yeah its been a year of ups and downs..
I remember my resolutions for last year:
Be a different person, learn to care.
HEY it worked out for like half the year but it slowly, but surely wore off. I'm who I used to be, irresponsible and uhhh whatever.

Well I guess i didn't specify HOW LONG this resolution would last.. So..

This year I have a new one though,
This time it's for as long as I live (Hopefully)
I will exercise self control and learn to care.

Now back to gunpla talk yeh?

Long story short,  I'll be back (i promise [myself])

Something

I enjoy wasting my time indulging in pointless, meaningless pastimes. Isn't that a big paradox? I spent the days in school this year counting down to this holiday, thinking it would give me time~ time to reflect, time to rest, time to change. Half the holiday has passed, and I feel like I've accomplished none of all that. I live in fear~ fear that I will run out of time. I spend all my time thinking about the many -productive- things I could do with it~ but by doing so.. I've lost so much more of it than I should have. I indulge in my thoughts, the thoughts of me being a greater person. I think of how much I would enjoy myself with the amount of time I have~ then I realise there really isn't much more of it left. School begins soon, in 28 days. The last (or second last) chapter in my book. The greatest challenge lies ahead of me. Its closer to me than I could ever imagine.

Cool stuff

I really love how this strike looks! I might do one next year (: 

Sadly, i may not be painting until my 2015 exams are over.. BUT I'll still be building and improving my sanding and out of box skills~

Credits to gg for the pic! 

Real Robot Modelers Exhibition 2014 (Koriyama, Japan)

http://gundamguy.blogspot.sg/2014/11/real-robot-modelers-exhibtion-2014_26.html?m=1

As I was picking and orange from the fridge,  I came across a badly bruised and blackened one. I peeled it and tasted it, and was surprised to find that it was sweet.

Far sweeter than any new bright orange.

Either that's how people are too or science has gone too far. Or maybe it's just me..

MG Zeta 2.0 WIP 2

Hello again! Oh.. theres no one here

Oh wells.

I completed the arms and the skirt,  which i felt was quite alot. BUT hey look,  thats only a third of the manual down. I've been procrastinating buying myself some sandpaper and a mask for a long while.. Mostly because of the awesome games that are/have lately been released. My wallet took a beating.. And this friday, pokemon OR and AS are being released, along with news on the PG Unicorn. Thats awesome!

So until i get my mask, and sand paper, so long.